oh my god.I'm horrible. I'm an idiot. I may be the worst girlfriend in the history of forever. I wanted to tell him, i was going to. but i wasn't ready to. and i didn't know how. ugh, i didn't want him to find out that way. he says he isn't mad, but i think he is.

here's the story, my guy friend and i were talking one day. he was talking about the girl that he wanted to ask out, but she turned him down. then he started talking about how he liked me last year... we were having an open and honest conversation and somethings were said. now my boyfriend knows and i really don't want him to be mad at my guy friend, because my guy friend didn't really do anything wrong, he just had a conversation with me. maybe it was too open and honest, but that's all it was. a conversation.

i'm worried that i may have ruined their friendship, or i may have ruined my relationship. what if he feels like he can't trust me? what if they don't make up?

why didn't i get this cleared up sooner? why won't they just admit that they're mad at me?

Friday night was our school's homecoming football game. We won 40-something to 6. it was fun, but i sat on the other team's side with my friends because there was no room on our side. i got my first kiss after the game. big moment.



saturday was the homecoming dance. i went with my boyfriend and it was soo fun. we danced and talked and kissed some more... it was like a real life chick flick. I'll have to post the pictures when i get them back.

after the dance i went to my friends house where we went "camping" in a tent in their yard. it was fun, but it was sooooo cold! BRRRR! like i had jammie shorts, jammie pants, and a huge sweatshirt, and like 5 blankets and i was freezing! but it was fun, we ate junk food and talked all night and took crazy pictures.



this was an awesome weekend, but now i have to do math homework, psychology homework, language arts homework, and study for a biology quiz... not so fun.